I meant to link to this yesterday: 5 things Obi-Wan should have told Luke instead of lies. #obi-wan's casual relationship with the truth

Leaving aside all Doylistic reasons (i.e., that at the time, Lucas had no idea Obi-Wan was lying about anything!), given canon as it currently stands, I feel like I can only blame Obi-Wan for not clearing up 1 (Darth Vader is your father) and 5 (Princess Leia is your sister). More on that below but first, I will quickly dispatch the others:

- 2. Owen was Anakin's stepbrother and they only met once is irrelevant to Luke's situation, because Owen and Beru raised Luke and loved him and were his family in all ways that matter. Otoh, this part: Obi-Wan could have saved himself a lot of time by just telling the kid that he was hidden away to protect him from the Empire, and now it's time to step out I can agree with. That would have been perfect and not in any way set Owen and Beru up against Luke's father's 'ideals,' whatever those were meant to be at the time/according to Obi-Wan.

- 3. Yeah, it would have been great if Obi-Wan gave Luke some background on the Jedi Order, but I feel like there was time for that later, in ghostly chats during downtime or while training with Yoda. I don't know if you lead with philosophy and history when rescuing the princess and destroying the planet-killing space station are the top two things on your to-do list. And Luke spent a few weeks with Yoda so we don't really know what else he was taught aside from all the running and the handstands. He seemed to be doing all right in RotJ anyway, some Force-choking aside.

- 4. I don't think Obi-Wan was advising Luke to bury his feelings forever and ever. Luke may have interpreted it that way (certainly Anakin seemed to, despite ten years of Jedi training), so much as he was saying, don't let them overwhelm you while you're fighting the Emperor and Vader, because they will use your feelings and Leia against you if they can. And he's not wrong - Luke does get overwhelmed when Vader picks up on the whole 'sister' thing, but then he masters himself and wins out, at least in terms of 1. not dying and 2. bringing Vader back to the light. I feel like Coach Taylor lays it out best: "Every man at some point in his life is gonna lose a battle. He's gonna fight and he's gonna lose. What makes him a man, is that in the midst of that battle, he does not lose himself."

Now, the two lies that actually did some damage and Obi-Wan should have pulled on his big boy pants and told the truth (speaking from an in-text/Watsonian perspective):

1. "Darth Vader is your father" - I absolutely understand to some degree why Obi-Wan couldn't bring himself to tell Luke this, especially not early on. And I don't need to rehash all the reasons why for Obi-Wan it was not even really a lie! Why he could weasel around with "from a certain point of view" and still look his ghost-self in the ghost-mirror. I mean, I can if you want me to! I'm happy to discuss Obi-Wan at any time! but I feel like it is, like, 93% irrelevant to this particular discussion, because once Luke was leaving for Bespin, it was CRUCIAL that he have all the facts going into that confrontation, and he didn't and it cost him dearly. It didn't even need to be Obi-Wan who told him! he could have kept on with his "I'm not mad I'm just disappointed" bit as Luke left if he really needed to for his own peace of mind.

But Yoda should have done it instead of being cryptic and discouraging, and while I'm not anti-Yoda as so many people are, I do think he made a huge mistake there, and did so willfully instead of genuinely. I think it shows on both their parts that they continued to misunderstand what drove Anakin Skywalker (despite, on Obi-Wan's part, knowing him really well) and also a real unwillingness to question their own worldviews despite having them upended so terribly. I mean, twenty years of meditating in the desert/the swamp over everything that went wrong (and no doubt with a side order of routine self-flagellation for Obi-Wan, at least), and it never occurred to either of them to think, well, Anakin never did anything the way we expected, so why should he be a Sith in the expected way? (and remember, he's not actually that great at being a Sith.)

5. "Leia is your sister." I mean, I guess he'd been alone in the desert for 19 years, so maybe it wouldn't have occurred to him that cute teenagers in adrenaline-fueled and dangerous situations might end up kissing and stuff! Especially when BOTH of them were Skywalkers. I mean, he knew Anakin met Padme when he was 9 and was like, "She's the one for me!" and ten years later, actually made it happen, so I don't know what he was thinking when he neglected to mention that the girl currently inspiring Luke to radical notions of overthrowing the Empire was none other than his sister. It would have at least avoided some awkward situations and the potential for a very different sort of family tragedy, anyway. ("One more date and we would've had a Greek tragedy on our hands." - Soapdish) I guess he was just really confident in Han Solo's charms to win the princess's heart in the end? *g*

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The past few nights, I've been in bed by 10:15, so last night when I stayed up until 11 (which is my usual bedtime), I was like, "it's so late!"

It's getting darker earlier, which always makes it feel later than it is, but last night 11 pm felt like 2 am for some reason.

For some reason my DVR didn't pick up the season premiere of Star Wars Rebels on Monday (at any of the times it aired) but it did have the first half hour set to record last night, so I pressed record for the second episode as well (why does it do that? I do not understand!), even though I watched both live.

spoilers of Mandalore )

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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 18th, 2017 11:33 am)
There was a most adorable pug in a bag on the subway this morning. It reminded me of Gizmo from Gremlins. It looked a little skeptical about the whole bag situation but was really well-behaved. And so cute!

Work continues to be ridiculously busy because in addition to my own job, they keep adding things to my to do list from jobs that aren't currently filled, so I'm doing three people's jobs. It's bullshit, and I would rant but I'm not locking the post so. Whatever. I don't get paid nearly enough for this.

Yesterday, I got an email from the realtor, who'd gotten an email from the management agent who was like, "There's no estimated monthly mortgage payment in this loan commitment letter" and I said to myself, says I, "I wondered about the exact same thing!" So the loan officer forwarded the loan estimate letter that I'd gotten back in September with the estimated monthly payment. They also wanted proof of my "bonus" since it wasn't listed in my salary verification letter so I had to send them the pay stub and the letter explaining it as a "one time extra wage payment" since that is what they call it in order to not have to tax it like a bonus, but it was a deposit that shows up on my bank statement and then in my taxable income and therefore needs an explanation. Luckily, after all that was forwarded, the agent said she was sending the application to the board for their review, so hopefully I get called for an interview soon.

In other news, I got a clean bill of health from the dentist, so I'm free from that for another six months. Of course, I totally ruined the minty fresh feel of my mouth by having cheesy garlic bread for dinner, but eh, sometimes a woman needs cheesy garlic bread, bad breath be damned.

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Wednesday reading meme:

What I've just finished
The Ship of the Dead (Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard, #3) by Rick Riordan, which I enjoyed a lot, especially the spoilers )

What I'm reading now
The Rules of Magic by Alice Hoffman, the Practical Magic prequel focusing on the aunts. I love the aunts! I love seeing them as young women! I love everything to do with them and their relationship with their aunt who fills the role for them that they do for Sally and Gillian in PM.

I do not love their super special most handsomest and most powerfulest baby brother who spoilers )

What I'm reading next
Too many books to pick one out of the pack just yet!

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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 17th, 2017 01:38 pm)
Yesterday, I checked to make sure my application package had been delivered and FedEx said there was a delivery exception!!! the business was closed!!! and I was like, "!!!" but luckily it was reattempted and delivered by noon instead of 10:30 am. Still, though. Can nothing just go smoothly?

In other news, I just wrote and deleted a writing rant, but suffice it to say, "start as close to the end as possible" remains one of the best and most useful bits of writing advice I ever heard.

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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 16th, 2017 10:50 am)
Yesterday, I scheduled my grocery delivery for the 8 am - 10 am slot, since I had plans for the afternoon, and so I set my alarm for 7:30 so I could at least have brushed my teeth and put on pants, but I hit snooze instead of getting up, and then the doorbell rang at 7:45. Needless to say, teeth were not brushed and pants were not acquired - I did pull on a pair of boxer shorts before I answered the door, but I was still half-asleep while the guy handed me my groceries.

I guess being early like that almost makes up for two weeks ago, when they didn't show up at all? Even though they said they delivered it to someone in the household? And I spent half an hour on the phone with Amazon assuring them that as the only person who lives in my household, I had not received any groceries. They refunded my money, of course, but it meant I had to actually go do grocery shopping. And then my baby spring greens froze (I think it was the packaging? because the bagged salad doesn't do that) and I had to buy lunch all week anyway, because ugh, salad that has frozen and then defrosted is all limp and slimy and I couldn't bear a week of lunches of it.

In better news, my plans yesterday were meeting up with [personal profile] tenaciousmetoo, her husband, and [personal profile] innie_darling to go see the 30th anniversary screening of The Princess Bride, which was, of course, fantastic. It opened with Ben Mankiewicz interviewing Rob Reiner, and Rob Reiner telling cute stories about the filming of the movie (and then there was a second brief interview segment bookending the movie).

The movie still holds up. It's still sweet and funny and romantic and funny, eminently quotable with iconic performances, sword fights, pirates, evil princes, and true love conquering all. Do I wish Buttercup were a little more active in the fire swamp? I do. But I am heartened by having seen Robin Wright as General Antiope in Wonder Woman, and the progression of yet another princess from my youth (I was 17 when TPB came out, so I can't say childhood) becoming a general. Anyway! It was great to see it on the big screen again, and I definitely recommend it.

Then we had dinner at the Grey Dog - the food was good but the music was loud - and talked for a couple of hours. All in all, a great way to spend a grey October afternoon.

And then the Giants actually won last night! A game where they were supposed to be annihilated! So that was fun. *g* But now I am very sleepy and wish I was home in bed instead of at my desk at work. Sigh.

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I answered the first ten questions of this meme here, and now I'm doing the second set of 10:

Ship Questions for your Current Fandom

11. Who is your current OTP?
I guess if my "current" fandom is technically Star Wars, then Han/Leia is my current OTP. *hands* And also Rey/Finn and Obi-Wan/Satine and Kanan/Hera.

12. Who is your current OT3?
Rey/Finn/Poe. Anakin/Padme/Obi-Wan (which is more...how could these relationships be better/more healthy than fervent shipping; but they do work better as a trio. IJS).

13. Any NoTPs?
Didn't I already answer this last time? Reylo for Star Wars, definitely.

14. Go on, who are your BroTPs?
Han and Luke, I guess? Though I'm okay with Luke being there as part of the OT3 with Han and Leia. *hands*

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?
Obi-Wan/Satine. Obi-Wan/Ventress. Also, Anakin/Ahsoka. I would also love some Ahsoka/Steela if people would write it.

16. Are there any popular ships in your fandom which you dislike?
Hux/Ren. Ugh. DO NOT WANT.

17. Who was your first OTP and are they still your favourite?
HAN/LEIA. OTP OF OTPS.

18. What ship have you written the most about?
I haven't really written much ship fic in Star Wars.

19. Is there a ship which you wished you could get behind, but you just don’t feel them?
Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan. I guess I can see why people ship them but I find them a huge yawn and have mostly been unable to sustain interest in reading fic about them where the romantic relationship is the focus. See also Finn/Poe, which doesn't interest me unless Rey is also present. I also just don't get any of the Obi-Wan/clones fic. I mean, knock yourselves out, but I don't get it.

20. Any ships which you surprised yourself by liking?
Obi-Wan/Anakin. Which - I don't read most of the fic for it, because I don't see it a regular romance? But I have a hard time with them being separated (before Anakin turns evil, I mean) even if they are technically involved with other people.

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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 13th, 2017 02:50 pm)
Well, the coop board application package is all spiffed up and waiting to be picked up by FedEx. keep your fingers crossed!

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Brooklyn Nine Nine: Kicks
Huh. I'd have definitely named this episode after the flan, but that's just me. spoilers )

The Good Place: Existential Crisis
spoilers )

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Another board meeting successfully concluded! Now maybe I can start answering comments again, and maybe do some more writing!

In the meantime, have a househunting update:

Tuesday, I received an updated loan commitment letter - almost final!, they assured me - and asked me to send them two pieces of documentation, one of which I'd sent previously (twice, backup for a deposit which was the payout of the inherited IRA from my dad back in May) and one which was a letter explaining why I was okay paying more than the apartment was appraised for (i.e., the comparables used were six months out of date, and I love the area and the building!), and they were like, okay, you should have a final letter soon!

So I didn't get it yesterday and today was frantic work-wise, but after everything was over, I emailed them and was like, "When do I get the final letter? I need to send this application in!" and they were like, "...that was the version for your application? Have your lawyer look it over and then send it in."

I wish they were more explicit about these things! Because this letter is not executed, nor does it actually specify what my monthly payments will likely be, both of which were done with the letter the last time around. So I was like, "Okay then!" and sent it on to my attorney, who just emailed back like, "Good to go, V!"

Since S. the realtor's assistant has already approved the rest of the package ("You're so organized! You're like my long lost twin!"), I made the required copies (on three-hole-punched paper) and I went and got all the necessary checks; it's costing me $1225 in various application fees this time around(!!!), and luckily I don't have to pay $10 a check for each certified check because I have "priority" status at Big Evol MegaCorp (i.e., my bank and also former employer), because that would have been $50 on top of that. And that's not even getting into the $450 the appraisal cost, or what the closing costs will be (and then the moving costs and cleaning costs and ripping up the carpet and refinishing the floors costs and painting an accent wall costs etc.). Oy.

So tomorrow I'll slip the numbered divider tabs into the pile of papers, put them in the binders, and send the whole thing off via FedEx and hope they call me for an interview soon. Keep your fingers crossed!

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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 11th, 2017 10:44 am)
Last night, on the spur of the moment, L and I met up for dinner at the bar around the corner, and it turned out it was Bingo Night. I didn't even know bar bingo was a thing, but apparently it is, and so we played, and in addition to getting two free shots when the 'booze ball' came out (a different ball for each round), I won two bingos! Well, the first one I was playing L's card, so technically she won, and she got an adorable pink unicorn bubble gun as a prize. I won the last round, scoring a blackout! And $25 off the tab! It was stupidly fun, though two beers and two shots on a weeknight is not the brightest idea I've ever had.

And now it's time for What I'm Reading Wednesday:

What I've just finished
Star Wars: From a Certain Point of View, which is a short story anthology that retells the story of the original Star Wars (A New Hope, if you must) from the POV of background/secondary characters. Some stories work much better than others, and it spends much too much time with the denizens of the cantina in Mos Eisley (though one of my favorite stories is the one about the lost clarinet or whatever it is called, and the variety of shenangians around it). I also really enjoyed the memo from the admiral that Vader chokes in the conference room, and the report from the stormtrooper with the dewback obsession, both of which are hilarious. There are a few clinkers - the mousedroid one was unreadable for me, and while I liked getting Beru's POV, her story didn't seem to fit at all, and I thought the writing for Biggs's story was way too overwrought.

Otoh, the Yoda section! Oh my heart. spoilers )

What I'm reading now
The Ship of the Dead (Magnus Chase #3). I admit, the way to my heart is definitely to have a Percy cameo at the start of every book. I do like that kid a lot. But this jumps right into the action and so far I'm enjoying it a lot.

What I'm reading next
I've got both The Rules of Magic by Alice Hoffman and All the Crooked Saints by Maggie Stiefvater on the iPad, so probably those, but anything could happen!

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I didn't mention this, but I left work early on Friday because there was a power outage and a smoke condition, so they sent us home at about 4 pm. This happened the week prior as well (the day I was out sick) and is due to the work going on in the street in front of the building, which has basically been going on since the crane collapse in February 2016. Between this and the years of construction near my apartment on the Second Avenue Subway, I feel like I am always in a construction zone. I gotta tell you, I don't love it.

Anyway, since the building was evacuated and then closed yesterday for the holiday, the HVAC took forever to get online, so I sat in a 90 minute meeting this morning in a small conference room with 10 other people, a projector that shed heat like a small star, and no AC. The windows had to be closed because of the construction - we're on a low floor so all street noises sound like they are happening in the room with you. As a way to start the day, I can't say I recommend it.

I guess because of the evacuation, the cleaning staff didn't take out the garbage on Friday, so it's still sitting here in the bin under my desk. Sigh.

Ugh. Tuesday.

In better news, [community profile] yuletide assignments are out! And mine is a good one! It's not even the fandom that I forgot to go into my signup on Sunday and delete because I was having doubts, which I was sure it would be (it typically is). My person only listed one prompt and their letter is only about a fandom we didn't match on, but luckily, the prompt they gave for the one we did match on is right up my alley, so this should be fun! Remind me of this in December when I'm tearing my hair out. *g*

In even better news, The Last Jedi trailer dropped last night! (My tumblr tag is, obviously, star wars: the last jedi, so you can see all the beautiful gif sets people made in the immediate aftermath, or so you can blacklist it so you don't have to see any of it. Whatever works for you, you know?)

I did a Rogue One/New Hope rewatch yesterday, and I have to say I still love Bodhi, Baze and Chirrut best. Sigh. Also, the way it recontextualizes that first scene between Leia and Vader is so great.

Anyway. I suppose this is spoilery? Idek, but here's a cut, just in case: The Last Jedi trailer spoilers: quibbles and concerns )

I did like some stuff though! I'm not a total negative Nelly.

The good things:

stuff I liked! )

In conclusion: I have concerns but I AM EXCITE. GIVE IT TO ME. PLEASE DON'T SUCK!

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People are posting their Yuletide letters already! WHAT. In my brain it's still, I don't know, August??

([personal profile] lannamichaels IT IS TOO EARLY FOR YULETIDE LETTERS)
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So, hey, hi there Yuletide Assigned Bringer of Joy (and curious drive-by readers).

THis is new and different for me. The posting to DW rather than LJ thing I mean, not the Yuletide. I'm an old hand at Yuletide. Which means that my tastes are pretty settled, so if you've ever seen my letters before, go ahead and skip to the fandom specifics, because nothing has changed about who I am as a fic reader. Anyway, here we go!

What I Like

I like all kinds of different kinds of stories, from G to E ratings, from quiet character exploration vignetes to meaty plot-driven adventure fics. I tend to gravitate toward romance as most of my choices this year make pretty obvious, but I also love family stories, slice of life/strange day in the life, serious or funny, future fic, before-canon, filling in the gaps.

Most of all, I really love stories that center the characters’ relationships (romantic, platonic, familial), show what’s interesting about the world and characters, and end happily or at least hopefully. My yuletide requests this year are all because I'm interested in the canon universe, so I'm not looking for any AUs that transplant them into drastically different worlds.

General Themes I like

  • Good hearted people who are doing their best, even if it’s not obvious to everyone around them.
  • People figuring out who they are and what they want.
  • Families, especially found families.
  • Supportive relationships.
  • Snark that’s covering genuine affection and a sense of the characters history with each other.
  • Meaningful conversations that are happening on multiple levels.

All Purpose tropes

  • soul bonds that kick in after meeting
  • telepathy
  • body swap
  • amnesia
  • mistaken identity
  • time loop
  • pregnancy/accidental baby acquisition/kidfic
  • journeys/roadtrips
  • forced co-habitation
Not sure about how well these could be applies to any of this year's requested fandoms but if one of them is something you love and you do see how it can work, rest assured that I'd be giddy to see them played out.

Shippy Tropes and Kinks

Most of this years requests have established relationships involved, so shippy get together tropes are potentially of limited use to you, but I like:
  • First times
  • new/developing relationships
  • mutual pining with minimal idiocy,
  • friends to lovers
  • rivals to lovers
  • casual sex with hidden feelings
  • fake dating, arranged or accidental marriage
  • cuddling for warmth, bedsharing
  • attraction to loyalty, competence, intelligence and so on.
  • having kids together/co-parenting
  • established relationships that are still full of spark
I like characters to be relatively equal partners in relationships (even if it may not look that way to an outsider) and I'm pretty much always going to prefer ot3 or polyamory over love triangles/jealousy. The more enthusiastic the consent the better!

If you are looking for an excuse to write porn, I'm definitely not gonna be mad. If you want it to be a little less than vanilla, just note that my likes in kink tend to lean toward the lighter side:
  • praise kink
  • body worship
  • light bondage/mild sensation play (not so much pain)
  • crossdressing
  • clothed sex/frottage
  • semi-public/discovery risk.
I also have a particular love of kink negotiation happening casually outside of sexy moments

Do Not Wants:

I'm asking that you please do not include
  • Rape/Non-con
  • Incest
  • Grimdark interpretations, dystopias, apocalypses, post-apocalyptic worlds, general unrelenting misery.
  • Physical or emotional abuse/humiliation, unequal power dynamics, 24/7 kink
  • Infidelity or betrayal of trust
  • Predestined sexual roles (A/B/O or BDSM universes)
  • Soulmate marks (IDK, I'm just not into that particular fated-love trope right now)

Fandoms Ahoy

A Life Less Ordinary )

Ferris Bueller's Day Off )

The Decoy Bride )

Footloose )
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([personal profile] musesfool Oct. 8th, 2017 10:30 am)
So I finished s3 of Killjoys last night and gosh that was both supremely satisfying and also makes me desperately want season 4 right now.

spoilers )

Speaking of BSG, and because I'm me, I've been thinking of crossovers I'd like to see, and of course, D'avin & Starbuck would be fun, and not just because the actor reminds me a little of Michael Trucco. And then moving beyond BSG, D'avin and Rex, of course, because good soldiers follow orders and then deal with the psychological trauma after. And Dutch and Ventress and not just for character reasons - it would be an interesting fusion, given the differences in how bounty hunting is handled in each 'verse. And Johnny and Kaylee, of course, and the friendly rivalry between Lucy and Serenity.

I should get an icon. Now that I've said that about both Killjoys and The Good Place, I should probably actually go try to find some now.

Last night, I also dreamt that I went on some kind of reconnaissance mission with Thor and we body-swapped, and then when we swapped back we had fun makeouts. Mmm...Thor. #ride the lightning

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